I shared with you the other day about this conflict that I’ve been having with trying to manage my “free time” also known as nap time. I also shared this statement.
If there was a project that people I knew were doing I wanted to do it too no matter what the skill level. I joined every club, swap and group I could find, just to be apart of the group – to be included.
This is also starting to change for me. I still have this longing to be included, to share the experience of trying to complete a project – the trials and tribulations but…how do I say this….some of the projects don’t quite interest me. Harsh? I know – I feel awful for saying it. Before Ella, yep this again has to do with our new addition, I would participate no matter what. And you know what? I have quite a few tops that I think will remain tops only. I don’t have any real desire right now to finish them, because honestly – where would I put them? What would I do with them? And if I am being completely honest, I don’t like some of them – but I did them to be part of a group.
Now, I want to work on things that I want to do. I’ve been hoarding projects for years now. Ones that I’ve always wanted to do. I have the pattern and even the fabric but just haven’t done them. I’ve been working on gifts for other people and those group projects, but haven’t done a lot that are for us. In fact I’ve been neglecting Nate’s quilt for A LONG TIME NOW! And I want to complete it – but those ‘deadlines’ for others seem to dictate the schedule.
I think I’m going to start doing the projects that I WANT TO DO. I can still be part of a group, by physically being part of it and hearing about the woes and sharing suggestions (if they are needed), but I don’t think I need to work on the same project.
I’m discovering this because the time I have to quilt/sew is short and I would rather spend it doing a project that interests me rather than something that doesn’t really hold my attention and I don’t enjoy doing.
With this all being said – I wonder what I should start first?